My 100 Day Challenge

Another item on my list is to fit into my mother's wedding dress, a size 10. I have a lot of weight to lose, so this will be a couple years long journey. I am willing to accept that. What I must accept is that it needs to start now. So, I have to decided to start with a 100 day challenge of going to the gym everyday.

The rules are simple, go to the gym everyday. If I can not go the gym (weather or life) I must either do a work of video, or at home gym equipment. For instances, today I couldn't make it home in time, because I spent all day with my Mom. They own free weights, and a bike; so I worked out with their at home equipment.

Each day I will post a video on my Instagram account. I need this because, I need some sort of accountability. I'm still unemployed, and I'm really close to the edge of just letting everything go. We will go on this journey together!

Photo by Анна Рыжкова from Pexels

Queen

Queen

Photo by Scarlet Ellis on Unsplash

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             
I don't want to do it

But, I know I have to get thru it
There be nothing but pain
and everything to gain

I breath in deep
drop to my knees
and let lose the reins

1...2...

God, please me, I don't know what to do

3...4...

The tears begin to pour

5...6...

I  scream  "FUCK this shit!"

7...8...

My world begins to disintegrate

9

Breath

10

Breath

Done!

I stand up, roll up my sleeves, and straighten my crown

'cause that's how a Queens got to be.

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A friend from my old job liked to rap, and wanted me to try free style. I'm as white as can be, and could not find a rhythm, so I wrote this poem.

I was inspired by many ideas. In the show Lost, Jack Shepard would allow himself 10 seconds of freak out, then he would move on. I also read a lot of Phillipa Gregory books. In those books being Queen never meant your life was easy of safe. I could never understand how they survived everything that happened to them, but they did, for a time. They just had to straighten their crowns and move on.

So with everything that happened with my Mom, and having to just stand their and watch, not being able to do anything, was  hard. The release of stress and pain came at the most awkward times. One moment I would be fine and the next in tears. So, I started to give my self to the count of 10. Let everything out, but the second I hit 10, I would have to move on.

That is what this poem is about. I can't allow any of my pain to rule me. I am Queen here.

I Found the Hot Air Balloon Company

I did not realize hot air balloons were a thing close to where I live. I thought I would have to drive a fair distance to actually be able to ride one. Come to find out, there are quite a few companies near by.

Friendship Hot Air Balloon Co.  is the company I am going to use. With it being so close to my house, it would be AMAZING to see what my world looks like from above. Unfortunately, it will cost around $300 dollars as well. Evidently, I do not do things cheap.

This one will have to wait a bit though. Part of the experience is to help set-up and take down the balloon, and stand up for about a hour and a half. I currently can't do that because of my weight. It will have to wait til I get just in a bit of shape.

Until then, I dream.

I Found The Fancy Expensive Restaurant

I am being very proactive with my list. What I am looking for is an expensive restaurant that I have to dress up for, and their food is something I have never experienced before. I googled and mainly just found expensive steak houses. I did not give up, and I found Charleston Restaurant.

Look at this menu:

This is just today's menu, but look at how amazing it sounds!

Now I will have to save about $300. Here are the prices:

If I'm going, I'm going to go all out!

This is how I'm breaking down $300: meal, tips and an Uber. Should a budget for a fancy dress.? Maybe?

An Uber because if I'm drinking that much wine, I will need a ride home. Always drink responsibly!

It will take a few months, because I'm currently on unemployment, but at least I have a target now!

Working on my List

With all the free time I have, I decided to review my 100 things to do before list. I've only done thirteen since I publish the list back in 2010! That is 10 years! I'm 37!

I have picked five to start with:

·   2. Fit in to my mother's wedding dress ( i.e. lose weight) – Losing weight is very
 important for me, eventually it’s going to be a health issue.

·  91. Put a 1000 piece puzzle together. – Hard, but I can do it!

·  45. Go for a balloon ride. – It’s about $300. I will have to save up for this, but I can
            do this , this year.

·  15. Eat at an incredibly fancy and expensive restaurant. – I live right near DC. This
             should be simple, but also expensive. Time to save me some money!

·  10. Get a tattoo – BARCs, Baltimore Animal Rescue Centers, has a tattoo
                 fundraiser every year. I will have to get one there.

I think this list looks due able. I may wait a bit longer for the tattoo because I want it to be on my wrist. 

Wish me luck!

Also, today, I decided going for a hike would be fun, since it was 60-something outside. It was fun, until I started walking up hills, then down, and then more back-up. Everything hurts! At least it was beautiful. I even got to see a tiny fox run across the woods! Check out my Instagram post for picture. (unfortunately the fox ran too fast in order for me to get a picture)

           
       

Layed Off Again

2020 has started off amazing. I have officially been laid off from my job, again. This time, corporate decide to merge our tiny little office into theirs. I was offered a job at corporate; but it was for less money, and an hour and a half away. So, here I am, again, with no job.

I must admit, this job was more polite about it. We found out back in August '19 that this job was ending. I had, had plenty of time to find a new job. Unfortunately, my Mom had been diagnosed with a form of blood cancer. The only cure was a stem cell transplant, and that was about to happen in September. In a stem cell transplant, they basically chemo you enough to destroy your immune system. From there, the donated stem cells, from my youngest brother, are injected into my mother to create a new immune system within her body, and hopefully kill the cancer. This is a month stay long hospital process. Even, now, in January she still needs to go to the hospital for check ups at least twice a week.

The process I new was going to be hard, and I needed a place to stay where I could "zombie" my way around, and that's what I did. We almost lost my Mom in October. When you have no immune system, the tiniest bacteria can kill you, and it almost killed my Mom. Had her new stems cells not bonded with her body, this would be a very different conversation. She survived, and is continually growing strong. I am continually healing from seeing my Mom almost die.

So, I stayed til the end. Now, I have no job and little else to do besides apply for jobs. I started a routine. Working out is definitely one of them. I'm not moving around as much and my body is complaining. I'm selling all my unwanted furniture on Facebook. You would think my house would be cleaner, but it's not. Probably should work on that. I've also been focusing on my eBay. Who knows, maybe I can tell the future man to suck it because of all the eBay sells I have. I have also been making tiktoks and my IG posts have become quite numerous. So, yeah, keeping myself super busy!

Wish me Luck!