Layed Off Again

2020 has started off amazing. I have officially been laid off from my job, again. This time, corporate decide to merge our tiny little office into theirs. I was offered a job at corporate; but it was for less money, and an hour and a half away. So, here I am, again, with no job.

I must admit, this job was more polite about it. We found out back in August '19 that this job was ending. I had, had plenty of time to find a new job. Unfortunately, my Mom had been diagnosed with a form of blood cancer. The only cure was a stem cell transplant, and that was about to happen in September. In a stem cell transplant, they basically chemo you enough to destroy your immune system. From there, the donated stem cells, from my youngest brother, are injected into my mother to create a new immune system within her body, and hopefully kill the cancer. This is a month stay long hospital process. Even, now, in January she still needs to go to the hospital for check ups at least twice a week.

The process I new was going to be hard, and I needed a place to stay where I could "zombie" my way around, and that's what I did. We almost lost my Mom in October. When you have no immune system, the tiniest bacteria can kill you, and it almost killed my Mom. Had her new stems cells not bonded with her body, this would be a very different conversation. She survived, and is continually growing strong. I am continually healing from seeing my Mom almost die.

So, I stayed til the end. Now, I have no job and little else to do besides apply for jobs. I started a routine. Working out is definitely one of them. I'm not moving around as much and my body is complaining. I'm selling all my unwanted furniture on Facebook. You would think my house would be cleaner, but it's not. Probably should work on that. I've also been focusing on my eBay. Who knows, maybe I can tell the future man to suck it because of all the eBay sells I have. I have also been making tiktoks and my IG posts have become quite numerous. So, yeah, keeping myself super busy!

Wish me Luck!

Finished the Minecart Hopper

Finished making my mine cart hopper system for my mind.

This video ended up being more helpful then the last video I posted:

My next project:

This lamb wool farm I found!

https://imgur.com/T5sal

It looks to be about 50 x 50. I will start by clearing out a section near my base.

Thank God for TNT! 

Should probably start collecting sheep too.

Minecraft Creation Mandala Part 3 - FINISHED!!!

  I finally finished this blasted project! It took forever and at times very frustrating!

Look how amazing it turned out!

That way, whenever I travel.

I know which mountain is my base!

Next Project:

Minecraft Creation Mandala Part 2

Almost finished! Just need to removed the glass!

Minecraft Mandala Creation Part 1

During my time last year without a job I got into Minecraft and that game has been addicting!

My current project is creating this mandala cross stitch pattern in game. 

http://www.crossstitchcrochetothers.com/index.php/Cross-stitch-patterns/Home/Biscornu/Rainbow-biscornu

For the blocks I used the different colored glazed terracotta blocks.

https://www.minecraft.net/en-us/article/block-week-glazed-terracotta

I used glass blocks as spacers. I originally thought I would keep them there, but I didn't like the look. Eventually I will remove them all. 

I ended up placing it over my base as a beacon, and I'm almost finished!

The hardest part has been trying so hard not to fall. With the edition of 14.1, I started using scaffolds and that has helped... abit. There was a huge learning curve.

Bonus pics of my adventures:

Being Furloughed then Terminated Sucks

On March 19th I was pulled in the bosses office with the news that I was being furloughed for two weeks because there was no work for me to do. The whole sales staff was placed on furlough because we had lost our investors, and there was no money to be had to buy supplies to sell to our customers. The hope was that they would get new investors soon, but until then they could not pay me. I was allowed to burn all the vacation I had left, which was a week and some change, and waited. Two weeks later, two more weeks. Two weeks later, another month. Blah Blah Blah. Fast-forward to May 31st I was officially terminated, and the company was selling off in pieces. After 11+ years of work, no severance package. Life definitely took a turn in a very weird direction.

Here are the results of my "fun" unemployment:

 I had just started a fun relationship about a month before I was furloughed. Both of our worlds exploded on the same week. I was looking for work and he was fixing his life. The whole thing took it's toll on the relationship and what started to be an amazing relationship slowly died to random texts a day, to nothing. Bad timing; or excellent timing. I will never know.

I have gained about 10lbs. You would be surprised how much you move during the average work day. I have become stale in my movement considering my office has gone from a huge warehouse to my tiny 924 sqft condo. Also, having all of my food less then 5ft from my new office desk, does not help. 

The cats are my new co-workers and they are tired of me being home. Before they could get away with climbing all over the kitchen and the table, bullying each other, and dragging my stuff all over the condo. Now all they here is me yelling at them to, "Get off!", "Drop that!", " Do not harass your brother while he is trying to use the liter box!". The plus side, my new co-workers are super cute and cuddly.

Tons more time to play video games and I have become an addict. It was so bad, my Mom suggested that if I am going to be up til 2am in the morning, maybe you could babysit your friends baby(he was just born on March 5th) while they slept. So, I took my Xbox 360 to their house and played video games while the baby slept. It got to the point where I figured out how to hold the baby and the controller at the same time. Eventually the Dad and roommate would stay up with me and we now have Halo nights. 

Minecraft has become an obsession. Seriously, how have I never played this game before? So much to explore, so much to mine, and so much to decorate!!! Currently removing the desert in front of my house. It's not going well with my vision.

I had created a list of things to do around the house back in March, and have plans to eventually do them. Being organized was one of them... All the items in my inventory on Minecraft are organized. Does that count?

I Just Shouldn't

I recently, finally, acted on a decision I made back in April, one extremely drunken Wenesday night. I walked away from a friend because of feelings I knew would never be recipicated. It took so long for me to do it because, I thought I could just get over it. I dont do this "feeling" thing and normally
I can ignore it tell it goes away. Unfortunately, that line between love and hate was being crossed because of my confusion and unhappiness. I finally decide to end it and walk away, before I became bitter and started acting like a teenager.

All my friends were very proud and stated what I did wasvery healthy. All I could think about about was how much it sucked and that it hurt  beyond any pain from a stubbed toe. I had decided to keep myself incredibly busy. I made plans, and said yes to any that were made, by anyone. The problem is there were still moments when I had nothing to do, and got  dejected about the whole situation. 

I finally spoke to my Dad, while all emotional, that I couldn't shake this depressing feeling. What frustrates me even more, is my friend has most likely shrugged this off already. My father and I had a long talk and what it came down to is....

" I just shouldn't "

 No matters what I feel, it isn't going to change what has happened. My being emotional, is not going to effect anyone, but me.  Any negative emotion I hold onto, is only going to harm myself in the long run and I just shouldn't.

Easier said then done.

My father is a recovered acholic, and in AA meetings they would make him recite the 'Serenity Prayer'.

Whenever he felt there was something that he couldn't control, or things were getting too much, he would recite this prayer. He then told me when I find myself getting too emotional over this, just say,"I shouldn't" and recite this prayer.

 

So,here we go. I'm done with all this blahness. No matter, how I feel, the only person who has the power to change that is, myself.

 

Grrrr!

 

 

 

Warrior Princess Mode: On

 

 

<3 Zerila